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What happens to your mental state when you take a step back from what God has given you? No matter what he has given you, a vision, a goal, a life, an opportunity, whatever the case may be that he has given, what happens to your mental state when you take a step away from it? I’ll tell you from firsthand experience time and time again because this is a lesson that took a long time for me to learn.
When you take a step away from what God has given you it normally feels very weird at first. Some part of you may feel discomfort because you know better than to do what you’re doing. Some part of you may feel freeing for just a second but within minutes sometimes seconds, that all disappears. The guilt is what comes next. The guilt of knowing that something did not sit right with The Holy Spirit living in you yet free will allowed you to make a choice and push past that warning sign as you continue. The guilt morphs into shame and the next thing you know, you start to feel sad, depressed even, and longing for the choice of taking back whatever decision you made that led you to this place.
Now a days, a good amount of the word will tell you that it’s okay and that you did nothing wrong. This advice won’t get you anywhere, trust me. The only thing you can do is pray for the Father’s help. Pray for forgiveness, pray for guidance, pray for repentance, pray for strength to repent completely, but most of all pray to feel the Father’s presence and healing. Once you pray this and truly mean it with your heart, you will begin to understand the meaning of “he is always with you”. It may be hard and you may have to put in the work to feel close to him but it is so worth it. As someone who has gone through this and took a while to learn this lesson, once you feel his love and grace as he saves you from the dark depression and dark mental health that you have subjected yourself to, you will never want to have that feeling again.
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